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Tuesday, April 13, 2004

hi...haiz...feeling so stressed...n sad...old memories coming back...one of my frens frm irc broke up with her bf...n she was distracted by it for sometime...she is oso my idol dj in purefm...to c her so distracted oso hurts me...n that caused old memories to b brought back...the pain i have tried so hard to avoid has finally caught up with me...what can i do abt it...haiz...after looking at that 'event' for so long...i should take all the blame...i was the one to set it all in motion...i was the one to screw it all up...so the blame doesn't lay with her...but with me...i juz can't contain it in me anymore...to c so many pple going through it again n again...it juz gets worse n worse everytime...there is nothing i can do to stop it frm coming back...if i have the power to do so...i wish that this had nvr happened...i wish that nothing of this had ever happened...but it'll nvr come true...it'll remain in my life forever...as a scar...nvr to heal completely...i juz want her to knw that...i dun blame her anymore...i only have myself to blame...n i pray that she'll continue to live life as normal...as happily as she was b4...n oso that she'll one day find the courage to walk out n find the person who truely loves her...God bless...have to prepare for tmr's scientific notebook test...i'm gone...*poffz*

May the Lord watch n bless all of my frens...gd luck for ur coming exams~~!

The Jedi Code:
"There is no Emotion, There is Peace.
There is no Ignorance, There is Knowledge.
There is no Passion, There is Serenity.
There is no Chaos, There is Harmony.
There is no Death, There is the Force."

My Heart Bled
4/13/2004 03:32:00 PM