Wwwwweeeeeeeeee! The Festival Of Praise was great! =D it's the 1st time i actually seen 2 of the world's greatest christian praise & worship bands, Hillsong Australia and Delirious?, in Singapore! Pastor Colin Dye's msg was oso very powerful n i really felt a lot better after gg for friday's and sat's sessions! it was tremendous! =D

Ok, juz to update after so long, i dun think i need to mention abt my polyclinic attachment period ah? i dun think u all would want to c me talking abt my phlebotomy(drawing of patient's blood) experience in hougang polyclinic right? =P now everywhere i go, i juz look at pple's arm n will comment abt their veins liao...hahahaha =P kenneth, u knw what i talking abt right? XD ok, now for my final year project in Tan Tock Seng Hospital. Doing the Evaluation of Glucometers. quite a lot of the staff i met during my previous attachment there were asking, how come u come back? all alone is it? after dat oso got new staff members, frm SP lah...n frm university oso... at times i oso will join them for lunch and chat with them. my project offically started only juz last wk =.= now have to rush with the evaluation...have to run at least 120 specimens for the project... argh... now only done 40+ AAAAAAAAHHHHHH! >.<>.< still got so much to do! STRESS! haiz...

Juz yesterday, my mum was making noise n today, she oso make noise, say y i spend so much time outside har? y pple go church i go church so different? i was like literally boiling already...i mean, i really love this church i m in...i feel a lot happier, compared with my past {thankew xinru for bringing me there. i miss u =)]. n now she seek to take it away frm me? might as well juz say she wants a flesh puppet to manipulate, control? every since i started schooling, i was nvr given freedom nor was i happy. i keep feeling dat she juz wants me to b a puppet, for her to manipulate, control n order. if i dun obey her, she becomes angry n flare. the only way for her to b happy? i literally juz obey everything she say. i mean, she has accepted christ, but she is still gg against it! she keep saying bad things, restricting me n all...come on! i m 20 years old for God's sake! muz she treat me like this? can't i even have my own freedom? she claim she knws me till the very fiber of my being, on her fingertips, but in actually fact, she doesn't! does she knw when i m happy or not? does she understand how i feel and how i look at things? does she even knw if her words hurts me? WAS SHE EVER THERE FOR ME? NO! NEVER! she didn't even make it an effort to understand how i feel! all parents wants their childrens to succeed, yes, this i knw...but at what cost? to the extent of going against their children's character? to the extent of sacrificing their children's happiness? controlling them like puppets? zombies? this isn't the way! there isn't a standardized way of raising up ur children! u muz adapt the concept but change the way to raise them! if everyone believes that all children should be ruled under an iron hand, then u will only do harm to ur children! u'll only cause them to go the other direction! n to makes matters worse, she is stubborn n proud! she refuses to accept the fact that she isn't always right! she believes that she has more experience than me n thus, whatever she does is always right for her children! but that's not true! she can't teach us certain things that only friends can, she can't teach us experience, experience is gained! not taught! but will she ever understand? no! she wun! parents should use their experience to advise their child on the decision, not make for them...i knw, because i have parents who believes on doing what they feel is right to them...they disregard how their children feel...even when i chose to go poly, my mum keeps stressing me, y dun go try go JC, u wun knw until u try mah. i keep telling her, my L1R5 is 20! no JC would accept me! besides, my chinese got E8! to enter JC needs at least a pass! my cousin is already an example to show what might happen to me if i can't make it! now? he's a dropout! if i chose to go JC, i might have ended up like him! now? she keeps quiet. because now my cousin is staying at home to play games n nothingelse... imagine, that might have been me! my mum wouldn't change until n unless something bad happens in front of her eyes or when she hears a situation that is similar to what she's doing! somehow, i really feel dat in order to make her change her mindset, is dat i m sacrificed... only den will she regret. haiz, if that were to happen, i really dun mind...bcos i m tired...really tired...been enduring for so long...the only reason y i m enduring till now is bcos of Jesus and my friends...otherwise, i would have left many times over... all i juz want to have is to b happy...to b free... to love n b loved... that's all i want... as what i learned frm my cell grp leader... to love is to give others at expense of self... n yet...my mum will nvr understand...for she wants to have something in return for what she gave...she'll nvr understand...